I cried. I just couldn’t hold it back. If you ever have been bullied, you know why.


Just posted a link to a video by Vitalic, and was amazed by how many likes it got. More then usually, for my blog. Was this the beginning of new popularity? No. I know I’m probably mostly writing to myself, and that’s okay, since I just enjoy doing so. Maybe I like pretending to write something everyone wants to read, maybe I just like to put care in the arrangement of what I choose to present and how I choose to present it, no matter who’ll see it eventually.

How can I explain those many likes of that one post, though? Easy, yet shocking and infuriating. Since the video is also a parody of america’s way of life, fast food, fast diet, I put the tags “weight gain” and “weight loss” on it. Checking out the people who liked the post, I find that all but one are obvious fake personas that serve as adds for one or another miraculous way of losing weight. Amongst others coffee bean pills and a site about man boobs…

What the fuck? How ignorant, greedy, self centered has the western world become, that fake personas, created solely as adds blindely like any post on the internet that has anything to do with weight gain or loss, in the pathetic attempt to generate consumers?

The sad truth might be that those probably aren’t even americans. Might be indians, might be machines. I don’t care. We apparantly live in a world where nothing is more important then money. This has become clear to me. Money and sex. Anything we ever do seems to be in order to achieve greater amounts of either. I’m sick of it.

To the companies that made those fake personas that liked my post, and I’m very aware of how little influence this might have on you, you make me sad. You make me realize that we humans are not ready to be humans, to use the technology that we have developed some way or another, to use the incredible capacity of our brains, our thoughts, our imagination.

You have made me realize that we are slaves to money and sex. You, who you make those adds, and the people who buy your lies.


Liricas Analas (Anal Lyrics) is a swiss rap group that raps in Sursilvan, a dialect of the Rumansh Language, a latin language only spoken by a few thousand people in Switzerland. It’s the fourth official Language of Switzerland (Next to German, Italian and French) and only spoken there. Most people in Switzerland don’t speak it anymore, when in the past a majority of the inhabitants of the Swiss Kanton Grisons spoke it. It’s part of the Rhaeto-Romance Languages, which are a mixture of the Latin language, brought by the roman conquerors, the Raetic language, spoken by the pre-european Raetians and the Celtic languages spoken there. Other such languages are Ladin in northern Italy and Friulian in north-eastern Italy.

Yeah, I’m a language freak. I learnt Italian, English, French and Spanish in school, and would like to learn Romansh one day, too. 😀

You hear a lot of prejudice about bisexual and pansexual people these days. Mostly because it’s a relatively new concept. First people got used to homosexuals. That took a long time. They understand now, for the most part, that a guy can also love a guy, and a girl can also love a girl.

But now you tell them that they can also love both?

We just keep confusing those “normal” people out there.

I’m bisexual myself. (pansexual?) I haven’t told anyone, yet, but my therapist and online friends. And I felt the need to write about it a little, since it makes me all confused all the fucking time.

Prejudices you hear a lot are:

It’s just a phase

You’re trying to rebel against something

It’s trendy


Well, I think it’s funny that I only hear those things through bisexuals themselves. I never heard someone actually saying that, when they actually believed it themselves. I think most of this things stem from a lot of girls nowadays doing it because it IS trendy. You just gotta admit it. Girls do it, they kiss at bars to get attention, free drinks and self-satisfaction. Guys follow the trend to feel special and different. And because of all those blind-sheep people, actuall bisexuals have a hard time getting recognition.

Another problem is, that many bisexuals make the mistake to come out early. Nowadays kids are very grown up in certain ways. We are a generation that probably knows more about sex then our parents. We learn things not suited for our innocent minds through the internet. That makes us belive we’re grown up, yet. We aren’t. We’re still teenagers and we have to live with the fact that we won’t get taken seriously untill we’re older. If we make statements that strange we have to just be ready for dis-believe.

Finally, I never understood how so many bisexuals try to defend themselves. Why bother? Why even bother explaining how it’s not a phase? Why? If I ever encountered a dis-believer I’d just flat out tell them” SO? So what if it’s a phase? So what if I’ll grow out of it? I feel like this right now. That’s it. I had phases where I only ate sweets and I enjoyed that, so why don’t let me enjoy my bisexuality?”

Well, the truth is, I don’t enjoy it that much. It’s fucking confusing, like I mentioned. I don’t even know where to find someone to date, anymore. I don’t even know if I’d want to date anymore at all. If you even get crap from the homosexual community these days.

Excuse my rant. It’s late and I had some wine. So if I made some grammatical errors or something, just ignore it.

Look what kinda-topic related song I found: